Since my last post I have missed a few more days of practice here and there, and it made me wonder,
Is it because I don't really like my practice?
Or is it because I would rather practice something different every day?
Or, is it simply because I am lazy?
Last Thursday we went away camping for five days, and came back late last night. So I took that opportunity to take a break from this challenge and stop beating myself up for it.
Thinking about it again today, my answer is - yes. I have been waaaay too hard on myself.
I set this challenge for myself in a way that is overlooking anything else that I am doing for myself, which resulted in me feeling as if I'm failing.
When I set this challenge up, I had the goal of "doing the things I know are good for me". And from my long list of possibilities I have chosen to practice Qi Gong.
I wanted to proactively practice what makes me feel better. And from all of the things I could have chosen, I picked Qi Gong for it's ability to make me feel more connected, more energetic and more vital. Because I thought that these are the qualities I need more of at the moment, to actually be doing all the things I want to be doing in my day to day life.
But then I pre-decided which exercises I will do every day for this challenge, and didn't give myself the freedom of changing it up.
I had the idea that it would have to be a self practice, which I will do by myself, without the guidance of a teacher or a video, and nothing else counts.
So after a good break from my challenge, I have decided that my challenge is actually to practice some sort of Qi Gong every day, and it could be a guided practice, a group practice, a yoga practice or meditation.
Because what I truly want is a daily mindful practice, in different ways and shapes.
So what do you think?
Was my challenge too hard before?
Am I copping out here?...
Should I just stick with it?
Looking forward to hearing from you :-)
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