Since my last post I have missed a few more days of practice here and there, and it made me wonder,
Is it because I don't really like my practice?
Or is it because I would rather practice something different every day?
Or, is it simply because I am lazy?
Last Thursday we went away camping for five days, and came back late last night. So I took that opportunity to take a break from this challenge and stop beating myself up for it.
Thinking about it again today, my answer is - yes. I have been waaaay too hard on myself.
I set this challenge for myself in a way that is overlooking anything else that I am doing for myself, which resulted in me feeling as if I'm failing.
When I set this challenge up, I had the goal of "doing the things I know are good for me". And from my long list of possibilities I have chosen to practice Qi Gong.
I wanted to proactively practice what makes me feel better. And from all of the things I could have chosen, I picked Qi Gong for it's ability to make me feel more connected, more energetic and more vital. Because I thought that these are the qualities I need more of at the moment, to actually be doing all the things I want to be doing in my day to day life.
But then I pre-decided which exercises I will do every day for this challenge, and didn't give myself the freedom of changing it up.
I had the idea that it would have to be a self practice, which I will do by myself, without the guidance of a teacher or a video, and nothing else counts.
So after a good break from my challenge, I have decided that my challenge is actually to practice some sort of Qi Gong every day, and it could be a guided practice, a group practice, a yoga practice or meditation.
Because what I truly want is a daily mindful practice, in different ways and shapes.
So what do you think?
Was my challenge too hard before?
Am I copping out here?...
Should I just stick with it?
Looking forward to hearing from you :-)
Miri
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You so *should* have come to Saturday's workshop on intention. There is no such thing as failure - keep intending and all is coming ;) Give yourself permission to be! There is no danger of you becoming a less desirable or good person for following the true rhythm if your life.
ReplyDeleteWorkshop write up is here, if you have a few mins. Caution, it's wordy! http://www.svastha-health.com/intentions-workshop-7-march-2015
Hugs and until soon xxx
What do I think? I don't think it was too hard; it was hard enough to be a real challenge! I don't think you're copping out -- I think the point of a real challenge is to see how far you can push it! I don't think you should just stick with it -- I think your redefinition is awesome! I admire your determination to set ambitious goals and your wisdom to reassess, evaluate and adjust on the basis of acquired experience. Good luck with the next stage.
ReplyDeleteThank you guys so much :-)
ReplyDeleteI feel like since having Razi it's so much more difficult for me to take control over my time, and there's so much to be done, its like I need these little challenges to keep myself on track: )
I would read about your intention workshop tonight. Thank's for the link :)
Big big hugs